Well that was a dozy!

This last week was quite a tough one. Work was difficult because we're doing some software and hardware upgrades. So it was moments of flurry while testing something followed by trying to do things without the computers and waiting. I hate waiting, especially when I can not amuse myself with yarn. Felt like I was a car revving my engine, going flat out for 10 feet, slamming on the brakes. I guzzled fuel all the time and did not really get anywhere.

I started off the week battling with myself over giving Gus insulin. Not sure if I could give an injection. I've never liked needles, I was not sure I could put one in another living being. It was way easier than I ever thought it could be and I will be doing it if the situation warrants it.

Then I made the choice and it did not work out well. I checked on Gus and found him unresponsive in the closet. I found out I can keep a somewhat clear head in an emergency, but I would like to be better. The vet told me I did everything I was supposed to do.

Gus seems to have no lasting effects from the trauma but I'm not sure that I have dealt with it yet. I keep feeling like I should be falling apart more than I am. I worry a bit that I am just sucking it all up and will just break down at an inconvenient time. Then again I don't regret any of my decisions or actions so maybe I have already made peace with everything. Bad things happen, it does not mean I need blame myself or anyone else.

I can warn you that there will probably be more kitty pictures appearing here on the blog, for at least a little while. What can I say it makes me happy.