We're working through our grieving process, again. I feel that I gave the situation and Gus' health a hard look. I had to admit some things to myself and Woah Boy was that difficult.
Gus had been declining so slowly and steadily that it made assessing his health all the tougher. We adjusted to every new normal that we had to, for which I will always be thankful. We got at least five bonus years out of him. Granted they were hard won bonus years but I will treasure each of the memories.
I found out just how tough and weak I am. Now was the time to admit just how weak we all were. Chronic illness takes just a bit out of you each time. Oh Hell it takes quite a bit out of you each time. It was so hard to look a pictures of young healthy cats and see the light slowly extinguishing in my beloved's.
Then the thought of what this three thousand mile trip would do to us. When you buy your first smartphone because you may need to have access to an emergency vet, you may want to rethink asking your beloved to make that journey.
It came down to hoping Gus would give up before I had to give in for him. That boy was never going to give up, unless you count not eating. He just could not face dinner time anymore.
He gave us his all and we gave him a peaceful way out.
Friday, June 17, 2016
It is with great sadness the I have to say an era is over.
My Big Tough Kitty is no longer with us.
|Photo courtesy of my vet's facebook page|
Gus' health has been declining for quite a while now. This week we decided there should be no more pain for him. We got to hold him and tell him how awesome he is the entire time.
He will be missed.
Friday, June 10, 2016
Yep it is true we're no longer going to be upstate New Yorkers. Deep breath. I've packed up much of my yarn and have started getting the house ready to sell. We're leaving the east coast.
Gus is thrilled! Mom, I smell a big smelly rat! What is going on?! What car trip?!!? I think I am in need of a lie down. Laaa Laaa Laaa I can't hear you!
I feel better, now that I have told you. I'll be back with more details once I've crossed 20 or 40 things off my to do list. Sigh.
Sunday, May 22, 2016
Meanwhile back in Vancouver. I took good vacation photos, let's not waste them.
On my first day in Vancouver I was a bit overwhelmed. You'll remember I had spent the last four hours wrestling Adriene's socks back from my seatmate who was not a "mate" at all. Demanding knitwear from the person sitting next to you is not mate behavior it's more boorish.
Anyways once we got my knitting safely installed at the hotel and got me fed. We took a long walk along the seawall past the Olympic torch.
I think those were the most recent Olympics we watched. It was interesting because it was one of the few opening ceremonies I've watched. I remember those torches coming to life.
Down the seawalk are the seaplanes. We stood and watched a few of them take off.
I'd had my fill of planes by that time and we continued our walk back to the hotel. We took the long way back. I don't much care for big cities so there are no pictures. Well that and I was super tired by this point. And excited for the ferry ride the next day and meeting Adriene.
I'll leave you with that cliffhanger.
Friday, May 6, 2016
When we went to Vancouver Island we had no idea it would be so lovely. I mean yeah I read Adriene's blog I know it is lovely, but to be able to walk in a rain forest in Canada?
I just love streams.
And husbands that stand next to posts with squirrels on them.
This tree was mesmerising for me. Big green multi trunked behemoth.
A nice collection of stones.
A log covered in moss.
A moose next to a log covered in moss.
I feel I may have drifted into Dr Seuss territory.
And lastly a patch of sun, you know before the rain started.
D would have loved to do a loop but I made him turn back so we could meet Adriene and her hubby for lunch. I was super anxious to spend some time talking with her since we had only the briefest conversation when she picked us up from the ferry the day before.
We enjoyed the island very much and recommend a visit to anyone, not just those meeting a blog friend for the first time.
Saturday, April 30, 2016
Honestly I've been knitting. You just have not heard from me much as we've been processing our grief. You want to see what I've been working on?
First up we have D's new socks. You'll remember these started off as urgent vacation knitting. I picked up the Lang Yarns Super Soxx yarn in Mad About Ewe on Vancouver Island. It is Cashmere Color 4 Ply. They are very nice and stripy too like D likes his socks.
Now I wished I had picked up the red version of the yarn too. It was so nice to work with. No really so nice.
Then we have my rustic socks. Hey they're Canadian yarn too! Shelridge Yarns Soft Touch Heather in Bronze. Oh that one toe tip is in Gunmetal Blue though. Yep I ran out just a tinge shy. Good think I can always pick up another color at Rhinebeck.
Yes they're a wee bit loose but I cannot stand the feeling of my feet being strangled. It must have been all those ill fitting socks over the years. I also like my sweater arms just a bit longer too, for the same reason.
Since I've only got a pair of socks on the needles for Mom, I'm looking for new project. This handspun yarn from Into The Whirled fiber is calling to me.
As it was calling it jumped onto my ball winder. I think it wants to be a cowl. Maybe another Honey Cowl? Does lace work with variegated handspun? It is more of a green and blue than it shows here. Anybody have a suggestion?
Gus does not yet have an opinion. Well at least he is not willing to voice it now.
Which is pretty funny because he has been voicing quite a bit. I feel like I am always being scolded or kept on his schedule. I think he misses Jack but is enjoying being the only cat. It is much easier to demand attention then ignore that same attention when it's only you.
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
Yeppers that is correct the very first item I've ever knit from my handspun.
Do you think I may have commitment issues? It is way less risky to knit something small.
The fiber was from Into the Whirled ends bag I bought at Rhinebeck. Oh a few years ago. I don't have any clue what fiber it is but I liked the colors and enjoyed working with it. It turned out much smaller than the one I knit out of leftover sock yarn, but hey the ear buds fit in it and that's all that matters.
Well that and a happy knitter and spinner.